Dear...

A poem written at a time when I realized the best person to rely on was the one I personally abused the most.

Dear Mother,

I loved you cause I should

I loved you despite the struggles

I loved you despite the lies

I loved you despite the neglect

I loved you despite the burdens

Dear Father,

I loved you cause I should

I loved you despite the abuse

I loved you despite the anger

I loved you despite the pressures

I loved you despite the expectations

Dear Siblings,

I loved you cause I should

I loved you despite the favoritism

I loved you despite the competition

I loved you despite the blaming

I loved you despite being alone

Dear Friends,

I loved you cause I wanted to

I loved you despite the betrayals

I loved you amid the chaos

I loved you despite the destructive whispers 

I loved you even when I was the target

I loved you even when you left

I loved you even when you stayed away

I love you still whether here or gone

I loved you all once and always will

Dear Lovers,

I loved you cause I chose you

I loved you when you cheated

I loved you when you lied

I loved you despite the gaslighting

I loved you through the heartbreaks

I loved you against the pain

I loved you on and on

I loved you even when I wanted to hate

I love you all still cause I let you in

I love you even if you are gone and not coming back

Dear Myself,

I’m sorry

I’m sorry for how I treated me

I’m sorry for neglect while attending to others

I’m sorry for the pieces of me I gave away

I’m sorry for how much I gave up to make space for others baggage

I’m sorry for not taking care of me in lieu of caring for others

I’m sorry for ignoring my needs

I’m sorry for sacrificing myself

I’m sorry for putting myself second

I’m sorry for loving so many others and never loving myself first.